Hello Hayessa, none of us can even imagine what you must have been through. I guess you should try to reach the social services staff at your initial reception facility and ask there for help. There are also several institutions that can help you overcome your trauma. You can obtain the addresses from the “National Working Group of Psychosocial Centers for Refugees and Torture Victims” (Bundesweite Arbeitsgemeinschaft der psychosozialen Zentren für Flüchtlinge und Folteropfer, BAfF or from the German Red Cross (Deutsches Rotes Kreuz).