Dear One chance,
Welcome to the Wefugees Community and thank you for reaching out to us.
First of all, I am very sorry to hear about your struggle and your difficult situation.
Unfortunately, I never came across an asylum seeker from Saudi Arabia personally and I can not share any experience about applicants from Saudi Arabia. Furthermore, I am not a lawyer.
I just checked some statistics - there are asylum seekers from Saudi Arabia in Germany but the numbers are relatively low.
When I was searching for some exemplary cases and court rulings, I saw that some people from Saudi Arabia were indeed recognized as refugees - mostly political activists (i.e. on social media) and women, if I see it correctly. However, I assume it will not be easy to convice the German authorities that you face serious danger in your country of origin based on the information you provide here.
Have you thought about starting a life in another country, Germany for instance, with a working or study visa? You may check the "Make it in Germany" website for some general information.
I will also link my dear colleague @mbeon-Éanna here - maybe he add some advice or correct me, if needed.
In any case, please also don't hesitate to get back to us with any further questions.
Stay strong and all the best,
Meike